I feel like in the last couple of days, I have HEAVILY snapped out of the love I felt for my stbxw, and the only emotion I can muster up for her is disgust.

I don’t even hate her, I’m not angry with her, I simply am grossed out by who she truly is as a human. To think I spent nearly 10 years with this human is astonishing. She holds zero accountability & has zero ability to live in her own reality she created. Everything is someone else’s fault, and if you don’t do exactly what she wants, you’re going to deal with her wrath.

Fun fact: The other day she told me that I don’t GET to feel hurt by our divorce. She told me that she is the hurt one, and that I should feel stupid for being hurt. What. The. Fuck.

Well guess what, she can take her wrath and fuck off to the moon with it. All of the sudden, I have zero fear or worry about her and her emotions. I’m not worried about what her reaction will be when I don’t bow down to her, and I sure as shit don’t mind her struggling because of her own damn actions. I’m doing me now, and I’m doing ONLY what is in me and my children’s best interest. Could not give a shit what any decision I make does for or to her.

Divorce is in motion and attorneys have been obtained. I cannot be more content with this. She manipulated me, my family, and anyone else around her that genuinely cared about her. She emotionally and mentally abused me for years, and I was too in love to see it. She’s not a good person, and I cannot wait to show her one day what she lost, and what another woman decided to treat properly & value.

I have finally yanked that pedestal out from underneath her, and I’ll be damned if I ever let another woman sit upon one.

Keep fighting, you will make it through to the other side & all of this guilt, shame, sorrow and remorse, and it will all disappear from your soul. And on that day, you’ll be reborn and restart with the best mentality ever.