I've been living on hopes and lies. I got my wake up yesterday. She's been talking to someone since before we separated. She has made plans. So today I woke and I put my old feelings away. They whee replaced with new ones. still real hurt, but Im not sure where to go now. It's a big betrayal, obviously the her moving that quick. But also how easily someone goes from, the one to not. Feel like I betrayed myself a bit too. Letting myself fall all the way with another woman. Who just got what she needed and could dispose of a life so quickly. The sadness of it all.