I'm going through a divorce and I found out that my stbx wife is still on my apple music's family plan. Before I removed her, I took a peek at the most frequent songs she's been listening to, and I feel like she's hurting and regretting her decision.

A little backstory: we've been married for 4 years with 2 kids (1 and 3), she left to find herself/happiness (whatever that means). I found out that she went on a few dates (one with her ex), lied about it when I asked her, and was also on a half-dozen dating apps. She came back a couple of months later to "work things out", I asked her if she's still talking to any guys, said no. Found out that she's been lying, told her to kick rocks.
I filed for divorce with 50/50 child custody (we're 4 months in).

So here are the songs and the lyrics that caught my attention:

  1. Sleep Token - Granite

"I was more than just a body in your passenger seat
And you were more than just somebody I was destined to meet
I see you go half-blind when you're looking at me
But I am
Between the secondhand smoke and the glass on the street
You gave me nothing whatsoever but a reason to leave
You say you want me, but you know I'm not what you need
But I am"

  1. rain city drive - medicate me

"When it's over we just leave the lights low
Roll back, eyes closed
It's suicidal
Coming off your chemical
Make it alright for the last time
Take it slow, I'm numb from the pain
Don't mess around
Come and save me
Medicate me
Tell me baby, am I chasing a high that I won't live down? Am I chasing a high that I won't live down?
Am I chasing a high that I won't live down?
Come and save me
Medicate me
Tell me baby, am I chasing a high that I won't live down?"

  1. loveless middle of the night

"In the middle of the night
In the middle of the night
Just call my name, I'm yours to tame
In the middle of the night
In the middle of the night
I'm wide awake
I crave your taste all night long"

  1. Catch Your Breath - Dial Tone

"All I wanted was an answer
All I needed was to know
Give me a reason
I need a reason
All those messages I left you
All those nights I spent alone
Give me a reason
'Cause all that I hear is
A dial tone
Dial tone
When I close my eyes
I can feel you breathe down my neck
Now I'm only half alive
And I hate that I miss your smile
But it's only half the time
Now I'm up all night
Got me checking my phone for the thousandth time
Told me that you never wanted this to die
You disappeared without a trace
You never bothered to explain
You just walked away"

  1. bad omens - just pretend

"I'm not afraid of the war you've come to wage against my sins
I'm not okay, but I can try my best to just pretend
So will you wait me out
Or will you drown me out?
So will you wait me out
Or will you drown me out?
(I might have to let you go)I can wait for you at the bottom
I can stay away if you want me to
I can wait for years if I gotta
Heaven knows I ain't getting over you"

  1. picturesque - pray

"I should pray a little more and think a little less
The devil's in my head and he won't let me rest
Everyday just like the last since you up and left
I should pray a little more, I shouldn't pray for death
Get out my head girl I'm already over you
I'm just sitting waiting for my body to figure it out
If you hit me up to come over I'm down
I know in my heart, you don't need me, I'd still hit you back
'Cause I'm dying without your attention
Without you I'm lost"

  1. Doja Cat - Streets

"I've been goin' through some things (oh)
I struggle with my inner man (yeah, yeah)
I hustle, I'll do what I can to get this money
Blaq Tuxedo
Don Dada on the, Don Dada on the beat Like you, like you
Like you, ooh
I found it hard to find someone like you
Like you, like you
Send your location, come through I can't sleep no more
In my head, we belong
And I can't be without you
Why can't I find no one like you?
I can't sleep no more
In my head, we belong
And I can't be without you
Why can't I find no one like you?"

Do you guys think I'm onto something, or am I reading too much into this?