So my wife decided she wants a break? Whatever that means. I had been suspicious somethings has been going on lately. Long story short she had an emotional affair with a co worker and I found out a year later. Me being a dummy decided to keep working on things and see how we can repair our relationship. We did and I finally reached a point where I could forgive her for myself and our relationship. everything was going okay but she can't seem to forgive me for how angry I got after I found out. I yelled and drank and blacked out a few times. Fast forward about a year and half and I've been getting that suspicious feeling again. I checked our phone records and saw she had been texting her boss way late up until past midnight. I confronted her about it and she basically said she needs a break and she had feelings for him. Great. I've put a lot of work into this relationship and have come a long way. But now she says all the things I have done are unforgivable and she needs to do some real soul searching. I feel like a fucking idiot. I'm also in a state of bargaining where all I want is to fix things. I still love her and I care about her but what the fuck. I never beat her. I was angry, how am I supposed to react to something like this?? I yelled a lot and lashed out but I've reached a much better place and now it's too late? Jesus fuck I know I don't need this stress in my life but I actually care about her and I don't know what to do.