My ex always wanted to live closer to her parents. In their small little town where there wasn’t many opportunities. She hated where I lived so I got a job in a city and moved us out here. Since then we’ve split. I quietly started looking at remote sales jobs in SAAS and tech. I was going to try to get a good one, and surprise her so we could move closer to her parents since I would be able to move anywhere.

Now I’m talking with this recruiter and I might actually get the offer. It’s insanely high target earnings in the HIGH six figures between a good base salary and commission (I’m 27). I’m hardly qualified and it’s much more than I make now.. I should be excited but I’m not. All I can think about is how excited she would have been if I had gotten here and told her I was doing it so we could move to her hometown. This could have allowed me to move us by her parents. And allowed her to stop working and start a family. Never thought I’d get a once in a lifetime job offer and want to die as my immediate reaction.

Now she’s gone and I’m not sure what to do. I may move to Europe or a small beach town. I have no clue. Anyways, not something terrible, it’s obviously a huge opportunity and really good. But it’s just hard to be excited because I feel like I should be sharing it with her. And shes probably sharing another man’s Bed. It’s hard to get excited about anything anymore. Either way, hopefully I get it, wish me luck!