Tomorrow my wife gets off vacation and is supposed to tell me, after 6 weeks separated, if she wants to work on the marriage and go to therapy. I kinda already know she is going to say no but she has been gaslighting me for weeks and I'm all over the place.

It's been an awful marriage where she has done things that looked like cheating and keeps doing things that look like cheating. The fallout over the last few years has been awful. We have a three year old little boy that means the world to me and that's the worst thing.

The good times were good but it's hard to hold onto now.

I feel like if, When, thus no hits all my 80hr weeks plus school and the majority of the household responsibilities. all my effort into the last 11 years goes down the drain. I'll need to completely tare my life apart to fit into a one bedroom apartment and start over. I feel like I gave it my all for nothing, just to get shit on.

Dark times for me and my little boy who isn't even old enough to understand.