I get weekly obligation sex from my girlfriend of 7 years. before her, I was having frequent, wild, primal and mutually fulfilling sex with a roster of hot women. But I decided to focus on just one for a change, to see whether I could reform my degenerate ways and become a functioning member of society. So we've been together 7 years. She wants a proposal and cant seem to compute why Im not begging to sign up for a lifetime of this bullshit dynamic when I could be living out my bachelor dreams instead.

32, 5'10, 185lb, 11%bf. I make good money for an employee and clear well over 6 figures per year.

315lb max bench
350lb max squat
400lb max deadlift

I run, train martial arts, part of toastmasters, lift weights 3-5 times a week.
I read, meditate, play piano, journal, cold showers, daily. I dont drink, smoke, do drugs, watch porn or fap.
I attend social run clubs, communal saunas and ice baths, social clubs.
I practiced and became great at pickuo in my 20s. Hundreds of approaches, 100+ lays, crazy confidence, frame was strong and sex was primal, dominant, lustful and raw.

I have read:
NMMNG, MMSLP, TWOTSP.

I got into MRP because I was already resentful that I'm doing so much. My "sex rank" is at lest 2 points above my partner already. I have everything under control. House, cars, fitness, finances, social life, fashion, health, hobbies, and mission. I only really lose control of my emotions when she asks even more of me without ever considering that I d'ont feel fairly compensated for my current level of effort. And admittedly I get resentful, and pissy at her.

So a book outlining all the other things I need to do to (maybe) get the sex that I can already get with a random girl at a bar is almost insulting. See, up until now, I thought my job was to be able to provide money, security, masculine skills and leadership, be physically attractive and be good in the bedroom. And that would equal her enthusiastically giving me the dirty nasty submissive sex I want, anytime. But I do all those things, to a higher level than any boyfriend or husband that I personally know, or any man she knows. But I still get crumbs.

I have friends who are my age, without a stable job, spend all day gaming and smoking weed, who have a hotter long term girlfriend, that goes to the gym consistently, nasty in bed, AND even lets my friend have a girl on the side. So it feels a bit unfair and I'm mad as fuck about it.

Help me please