I was with my now wife for 7 years now. We got married on our 6 years of being together I found out she was cheating for 5 years through text with another guy making fun of me and all types of stuff. I had filed for divorce. But she kept telling me she was sorry and started changing the story of what she did even though I have evidence.  I'm writing to say I'm mad at myself because I decided to give it an honest try again through it all. With that said we were separate. At that time I was done with her. I started talking to other women I had intercourse (4) with and was trying to forget the pain. I reported her to her job, she's a nurse because she threatened my mom but they won't do anything about it so I sent a video of her recording patients. She broke my mom's house window and tried to lie and said I did it until I told her I recorded her. She was mad I made her pay for it and I should step in to pay. I told everyone and anyone who would listen to me that she was being a hoe because people always thought it was me doing wrong. After all, she's a Christian girl and comes from a good family. With all that said at the time of divorce in court, we decided to stay. We were going to therapy and working on ourselves. I told her to change her last name to mine because she never did and she would have to move out where she's staying now to be with me. But she has done none of the things I asked and she moving back with her parent. Both our in-laws think we are divorced they hate each other. I told her we couldn't work on us if she moved back. But she doesn't care. I've been constipated to tell her parent everything knowing they won't care. 

For guys thinking of going back to someone who cheated. If they are actively doing the work and not lying about what they did maybe there's a chance but 9/10 DONT TAKE THEM BACK!

Also, Christian women are the worst don't believe that God this and that talk. God won’t let anyone do this. 

I'm kind of mad at God for not punishing her. 

With all that I still wish we had worked but I'm giving myself a week of praying to speak to God after that I'm filing for divorce again I'm going through with it this time.