Two and a half weeks or so since she said she wanted to be separated.

I've done all the wrong things to try and keep her. Gave me 2 chances since to start rekindle the relationship. Messed up both of them.

Now it seems there is no hop, won't try and work it out or go to council in. I'm working on improving the things she says drove her away. Going to therapy myself, reading books. Discording what I do what I do. She is happy for me but dosent seem to sway her.

Still in the same house. Got ugly for a minute but now it seems to have calmed down. Told her she could stay for a year to save some money to get a house. I feel alone while she sits across from me on the couch though.

Plans we would usually do as a family are now one or the other person with the kids. I build the last 5 years of my life on us being a unit and I don't know how to cope otherwise anymore.

All I want is life to go back to normal. For us all to be a family again. I'm just in pain and I don't know how to cope.