I’m only saying this here because you guys are supportive and I feel some of you will understand… and I just need to fucking say it.

This used to be my favorite time of year. I absolutely adored the holidays more than anything especially because I built my life with my ex even before we had kids...

Now, with kids and on the other side of divorce, I have to pretend to love it. Oh, and I do for their sake — I pretend like a motherfucker. But man, guys, I am so ready to move into the new year and get this season the fuck behind me now. I’m tired of being sad and reminiscing and feeling all of this. I’m tired of wrapping alone, watching fun movies and listening to jolly music every other week, and having my kids show up with gifts from money she still had to spend on me.

That’s all. Thanks for letting me vent.