Together 13 years, married 6. She just kept everything bottled up, then one day said she couldn’t do it anymore. Said she never said anything because I was a good person and she wanted to give me the benefit of the doubt. Said she justified things by telling herself I was a good person and she shouldn’t be angry with me. I had no idea she was doing this internally until last year when she said she needed space. Separated for a year now. I thought the next step would be working towards reconciliation, once she was done figuring herself out, but she told me a few days ago that “she loves me more than I could ever know, wants to keep me in her life, but does not want a romantic relationship with me anymore.” Like WTF? Clearly we love each other, right? I don’t understand why she doesn’t even want to try to work it out. I can’t eat, sleep, focus at work. I am lost.

For the past year, I’ve already been working on myself, eating right, exercising, meditating, reading, getting out in nature, being around friends and family, etc. etc. etc. I’m still so lost right now. I put so much effort into our relationship, and it’s just gone now. I needed a place to vent this.