Hey guys,

Started simping out. Relationship went south. From my perspective, my GF was sub-textually encouraging me to dump her for the last two months which I did.

Here's the sequence of events:

She shows me a message in her DMs from someone she used to fuck, hasn't actually replied to him yet, but was in the middle of doing so. That was the final straw for me so I dump her the following day in a very vitriolic manner. Following day she comes over to get her stuff out of my place. We talk briefly and are both very calm and amicable. I go cold on her, unfollow her, delete pics on my FB of her, etc. Few days later, I notice that the earring she accidentally left behind is now gone, which means she came by my spot while I was out and got in with a key she probably had made. Think she most likely did this just to play mind games.

I download dating apps, start talking to new women, feel pretty good after two weeks of being done with her, moving on with my life. She came across my dating profile last night and freaked out.

Woke up this morning with an email in my inbox saying how she was shocked to see me on a dating app and how it hurt her so much - my interpretation is she thought I was gonna sulk and chase after her once the relationship ended and now she realizes she's probably gonna lose me to someone better (I'm a high quality man - got a lot of shit going on for myself).

Next in her email, she talks about and apologizes for everything she did wrong in the relationship. She outlines what her flaws were and how they negatively affected our relationship. She says she didn't love me enough, etc

Then she talks about the day we broke up and how it felt like sorrowful deja vu. Here it is verbatim:

"It was like I had lived that day before and I knew what was coming, but that I knew we would make it out the other side. We didn’t. So I wonder if maybe my past self and my current self came to a crossroads and chose to go separate ways. Maybe yours did too. It was sad but felt inevitable."

Then she closes out with this:

"You were, and still are the great love in my life. I am very sorry to have caused you pain. My only intention was to love you and to open myself up to love. I failed many times, but you also helped me succeed in more ways than I knew I was capable.

I’m sorry I was not better when I could have been. I hope you find what you're looking for in life and that it's full and vibrant and more."

My initial reaction was a feeling of tenderness for her seeing as her email seemed really genuine and heartfelt. But then I remember all the shit she's pulled in the last two months and it has me wanting to simply ignore the email and keep on moving forward.

What is this? Does she want to secure a placeholder, keep me on deck? Is this beta bait? Is this desire for validation? Or is this a genuine request to get back together? Looking for closure?