33M, had enough of my marriage. Almost left the other day but she stopped me. She wants to have sex now but I refuse. No kids, no property, no debts, so I would essentially be a free man if I left.

I can’t bring myself to do it though, because I feel like she is irreplaceable, even though I know she is not. She is obese(220@5’4), has no neck, face is just all fat, has anxiety issues. Sweats the small stuff all the time, tells me that Im a fat hater, etc… dog shit and piss in the lower level, dogs pee in kitchen. She dresses very unflattering too, I could literally see myself committing suicide if I stay.

But I figure she’s in my league because I have no dating experience except online, and those were the women I attracted. I’m very fit, great career, highly educated, on the shorter end(5’6), but I just feel it is over for me either way.

Im sitting here contemplating a drive to the hotel and calling it done forever. But I feel like this may be the last time I ever have a woman in my life again. Feel like my only option is to go to Thailand or some place like that and get a mail order bride.

i just have no idea of my SMV, my self esteem is just so shot. I feel equivalent to a 400 pound woman or junkie when it comes to dating, and I think my height plays a huge role in that .My wife told me that I think way too highly of myself when I was about to leave