I broke off my 3 year relationship with a guy who had previously cheated, got a chance to make things better, and fucked up in different ways. He had an erectile dysfunction because he would beat off to instagram girls all the time 😐 We were 20. I would ask why we never had sex and it affected my self esteem so bad and instead of telling me it was HIM with the problem, he just let me think he was unattracted to me. He played videogames 8 hours a day and didn't help around the house for shit. We got a dog together and only I was the one taking care of it, even after multiple times begging him to just fucking do something.

Anyway, after multiple chances, talks, and finally an ultimatum, nothing changed and I left. He was surprised and heartbroken. I lost everything in that breakup, my dog, my fish tank, my job, my apt, i moved back to my home state to live with my toxic family again.

Almost a year later, I'm here, just enjoying me. I just got back from my first ever solo travel, and while it was more stressful than fun, I'm glad I went and learned a lot for next time. I'm still with my family but I can deal with it now. But I almost gag at the idea of being in a relationship. The thought of going to sleep every night, worrying if he's hiding something. The thought of getting to know someone's family 🤢 the thought of meeting their scrote friends 🤢 the thought of learning about their past relationships and seeing the way they talk about their exes, good or bad. LETTING A MAN HAVE A SAY IN THE DECORATING?!?!? No fucking thank you.

I do what I want, when I want to. I sleep with who I want, when I want. I spend my money all on me. I dont need to compromise my life for anyone, I dont need to tweak future plans to include someone elses dreams, i dont have to live up to anyones expectations of me, or be somebodies maid. Every single time I get out of a relationship, im reminded of how much I love to be alone. I am my best self when Im not lost in someone else.

I go to sleep soundly every night knowing I'm not being cheated on, and that I dont have anybody trying to hog my blankets 😁