So i’m 26 and have been with my girlfriend for two years, living together for over a year. We also bought a house together that is currently being built, frequently discuss having children, marriage etc. A very serious relationship with a very sweet girl. I’ve had my fun with dating around in the past and she’s had a bit of it too (though far less than me) but we were ready to settle down and fully commit as god intended a man and woman to do.

Some months ago I got into a little bit of red pill theory which got accelerated by Tate and Fresh and Fit blowing up. It all sounded so logical to me. Men are supposed to be stoic, have a rotating roster, focus on money and disregard the feelings of your woman. Slowly but surely I started in putting less effort in my relationship, being less romantic, going out with my boys more often, flirting, dancing, talking with other women and taking down their Instagram. It all happened very gradually.

Then i got a crush on some other girl I met and started DM’ing her more often. My gf noticed her name on my phone a lot but never said a thing because I told her many times that I don’t like jealousy and that that was the reason my previous relationship didn’t work out. Last week I saw the other girl at a festival and hugged her in front of my gf (I was drunk) and when I walked back to my gf I saw how hurt she was. Me being pretty much red pilled at that point I kept texting the girl throughout the night and my gf just casually asked once ‘ who is that?’ but she let it slide. I actually set up a date with the other girl and barely cared to hide it from my gf.

The whole week she didn’t say a thing but i noticed at times when I said i was going out she would almost tear up or when we were at home she’d be quiet. Yesterday she broke down and said she has never felt jealous in her life but she can no longer suppress it and that she fears I might be cheating on her. That she thinks I stay up all night to talk to this girl etc. And my heart broke. Finally seeing how it affected her I decided to drop the red pill and start acting as a man of god again. Also called of the date with the other girl.

Don’t let people fool you and tell you women don’t mind when you are careless. They care and will be hurt. Don’t forget we are all children of god and selfish enjoyment at the cost of others will always be punished.