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You have my sympathies as well. T-shirt cannons are no joke.
(joking aside, what you endured really must have been hard, man)
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Men are disposable though. It is in our culture.
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You say that, but I'm sitting here at work on Reddit all day. Does karma count as a legacy?
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Biology>Culture>Ideaology
You'll likely need genetic engineering for that.
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Oh fucking please.
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It's a small price to pay to keep on living.
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I was suicidal for two years as well, though I suppose I'm lucky it was when I was in high school, so I didn't share any familial obligations.
However, I faced some similar issues. My private high school had sent me home, instructing me not to return to campus until a shrink passed me as someone who wasn't going to hurt himself. Sounds appropriate on paper, but I would have been expelled for missing classes, as any absences were not excused. This only encouraged me to lie my way out of the three tests I was given to establish a baseline for my mental health.
I also didn't want to be placed into any kind of protective care as a result.
There are some tangible negative consequences of seeking out help. In hindsight, I do wish I had done it anyway; what I faced wasn't nearly as bad as losing custody of offspring. Considering how close I came, on several occasions, to being listed in the obituaries, it would have been a much safer move.
....Still, we shouldn't have to make decisions like that.
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It's been over a decade since that dark time. I never sought help and kept everything relatively well-hidden. People knew I was depressed, but they didn't know how badly or what to do about it. I've just recently started opening up to people, including my dad, who until a month ago had no idea I wanted to die back then. I have to educate people on how to respond, and raising awareness about this stuff is important to me now.
After visiting a Zen Buddhist temple for a school project, I learned to meditate, and doing so helped me keep it mostly manageable. I'm convinced it saved my life.
Life these days, overall, is generally good. Happy marriage, and both of us are software engineers, so we don't have financial woes. I travel regularly, for work and pleasure, and I'm a pretty easy-going guy.
It feels as though that suicidal period left some very real scars, though. If one of my friends, or even my wife, is struggling with stress, part of me remembers what I dealt with, and it makes it difficult or impossible for me to comfort anyone. Kind of a big "so what?" attitude that I internalize. I'm also not very emotive; I may be happy or ecstatic about something, but to everyone except my wife, I have about as much visible emotion as a plank of wood. My friends harangue me saying that I treated our wedding like a poker game, and if you see the video footage, I don't so much as smile while standing in front of everyone with my wife next to me.
The flip side of this is that, after healing (for the most part) from it, stress and anxiety are almost entirely foreign concepts to me now.
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My father won custody without a murder charge against my mother. It just took him 15 years and nearly a cool million in attorney's fees to do it.
...Why it was so hard for a judge to award custody to a successful attorney over a high-school dropout woman who couldn't hold a job as a waitress is pretty sad.
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I don't know, man. When I was suicidal, hanging was not a very good option to my unwell brain. It's pretty hard to get the appropriate drop distance indoors, for example.
I do not advocate suicide; these were my two plans that I nearly executed when I was ill, though:
Again, nobody should be killing themselves. I'm glad I didn't. But the odds of fucking something up hanging oneself are greater than other methods.
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Depends how far you drop.
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If you watched his shows, he alludes to the fact that he had some serious things go wrong and was at some very low lows in the passed. I think the one where he goes up river in Borneo.
Plus you could sort of tell he was depressed if you know what to look for. He never had a real large range of emotion, just kind of a flat emotional delivery even of things he supposedly liked.
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CNN and MSNBC still haven't realized the world isn't going to end.
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That sucks, but to be fair older men dating younger woman should expect to be cheated on.
99% or the time younger women are with older men for money. She isn’t going to stop being attracted to men in her age range, so you have to be prepared to turn the other way when you find out she’s sleeping with some 25-30 year old guy.
Not pretty, but it is reality.
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How do you know she was cheating or what was agreed upon or not within their relationship?
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Yeah that’s really not cool. Basically slander and implies she has some fault in his decision to take his life. Not cool.
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[+]GunOfSod1 points [recovered] (45 children) | Copy Link
And maybe he was madly in love with her and she had made committment to him. That would seem like a distinct possibility after a year long relationship. Who knows? But can you tell us a bit more about projection?
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Ahh and here was I thinking they'd do the converse.
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Yes, I see exactly what you're talking about now.
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Oh a new lesson! Is being directly confrontational also petty? Or is that just for other people?
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This guy was loaded though, access to mental health care probably wasn't his problem.
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Despite wealth and social standing, we all have the same problems. Some folks are just better at hiding them.
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Sure it does, because some people believe wealth cures most ills. Suggesting that most problems revolve around money is a generalization, and ambitious at best. I doubt Bourdain or Spade killed themselves over money.
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