By hooking up I really just mean make outs because I don't have the juice like that 😂. I don't drink nor smoke, I don't enjoy the music, the environment in general I find rather boring, so the only incentive I have for even going to said club is that there are a lot of girls there who are willing.

I was spending my weekends somewhat depressed at that place because it's really just not my environment. I would just get in my head and stiffen up. I then put a focus on having fun with my night outs so I started going to metal concerts instead which I've been loving and have felt a lot better.

I do however now want to put more of a focus on hooking up. I haven't improved in that area at all these past 2 months. So is it creepy to have no interest in the club scene whatsoever apart from hooking up? I'm happy to become a social parriah of sorts as I'll be leaving the country in a little over 3 months. I anticipate a great deal of rejection but I'm ready to run the gauntlet 😂.