Love shouldn’t be hard

i just got out of a relationship like this. I started therapy at the beginning because I was terrified of being ghosted and wanted to be treated for the anxiety that caused me stress my whole life. Every time I got upset about something he did (found an active dating profile, he never showed up to a homemade dinner bc he passed out drunk, he refused to call me his girlfriend saying the term felt childish, he told me no he wouldn’t travel with me during thanksgiving bc family holidays make him sad even though he’s not American, found a used condom for “masturbation” long after we stopped using them, etc.), my therapist was like it’s YoUr AnXiEty GivE hIM tHe BenEfiT of THe DouBt. I spent so much time trying to overcome my anxiety while never feeling better for longer than a few weeks. I think she must have had a bunch of LVM clients and was using me to prove they can have successful love.

I did learn that my anxiety is a powerful tool and my gut knows way more than I. Also, I realize I assume the worst in men. Though I don’t want to let this prevent me from trusting someone deserving of it, I do want to maintain my skepticism.