I wish this was a positive story, it’s just not and if I don’t share it, I will go insane. I hide the depression from everyone, I am always the happy guy, the one people think has such a great life. My life fucking sucks, other than my parents and my son, I hate my life.

My ex still drags me down, uses me, bc she knows I’ll give in. I just have no self confidence anymore, I honestly don’t ever see myself finding anyone. My son gets my attention but nowhere near how it should be. Rather than focus on him 100%, I still deal with my ex, throwing away so much money, easily $60-70k in the last years. She loses apartments, has no $ for shit, just a total nightmare. My son goes to private school, has all the shit he wants but I see it, he wants more of my time, but I struggle so hard to keep the happy face for him. I love him to death and he’s the only reason I even bother getting out of bed these days.

I have a great job making a lot of $, I have a great family but I just find myself hating my life, myself and cannot believe this is my freaking life. Yea, therapy I know. This is more of a sharing feeling post so I don’t totally lose my shit.