My divorce finalized in March. Ex moved out last July and she initiated the divorce last June once I called her out on a series of behaviors that absolutely was most likely an affair. I say "most likely" because I don't have actual evidence but quite a few red flags. Also, the fact I calmly brought this to her attention and her reaction was to divorce speaks volumes. This was right after she lost a bunch of weight on a GLP-1. Therapist I see highly suspects my ex has BPD based on a large list of things.

No kids, got to keep the home (did have to buy her out on a hefty chunk of equity though).

I have a solid FWB situation going on now for a few months. Great woman, she has a 13 y/o son and we are both just enjoying the moment. I have zero intention of marrying her, cohabiting etc.

The sex is way better than I experienced with my ex. We see each other about twice a week.

Still, I feel...... empty. Yes, I get it, stay active, fill up the time with friends/family/hobbies.... which I do. When it comes time to lay my head on the pillow, my mind wanders and I miss having the companionship I had for 10 years with my ex.

Anyone feel similar post-divorce?