Sooo if you look at older posts you’ll see that I have/had a porn sick boyfriend and despite the better judgment of the ladies in the comments I decided to give another chance (I know, you don’t need to say it). Now for the last few weeks I’ve had a bad gut feeling that he’s using again. Im desperately trying to find evidence of porn use because despite his assurances that he isn’t hiding anything and me not able to find 100% solid proof, I can’t get rid of this feeling and it keeps coming back. Albeit late at night when im tired. Anyways, the indicators I also have other than this feeling are, that in his Instagram search bar I can go through the alphabet and with every letter, all of the top accounts that come up are porn accounts. And new ones every time I do it. Every time I bring this up his excuse is “it’s just because I don’t use the account much to search and it’s just suggesting things it thinks I want to see because of all the old stuff I used to search” now this is pretty sus because both of my accounts this doesn’t happen? As in, it only comes up with accounts that I follow, follow me, or that I have some sort of connection with. It’s just real funny since apparently the only thing he searches on that account for is shoes, and despite my searching multiple other things recently, all that is coming up, is still just porn accounts. Another indicator I’ve noticed is that the links he’s recently visited on Instagram has been cleared lol. I know I’m going to get told that me asking this questions is silly because I know what I’m feeling and all indicators point towards my feeling being right. But does anyone else’s accounts do this? Come up with new accounts of unrelated stuff that you have ‘stopped’ searching?

I’m sorry for clogging up fds with a silly post like this, I guess I just want advice again and a reality check. He tries to keep assuring me that he’s not watching anything and that if there’s anything he can do to help to let him know, but I can’t get rid of this feeling and I get in these moods where I feel like no other answer than “yes I am watching stuff” will suffice because the feeling is so strong. And I know he knows that if I find out there won’t be anymore chances so I’m scared he’s lying to me. And I really do know how ridiculous I sound because typing it out seems like it’s obvious he would be watching again, I just want to believe so desperately that he isn’t. Anyways I apologise again that this is messy and that the solution is so obvious but thank you for reading!