Long time reader and follower of the red pill. But I never thought I'd end up in this situation.
I have always been the type that women approach with twinkling eyes. A quick wit, and an unbreakable sense of self. (Not to sound full of myself, i have fallen far) Some men were jealous of the attention, but fuck them. I've always said, "if you don't have haters you're doing something wrong".
Over the last two years, i took on some risky investments and made over a million (Cad). Sold them for some legit stocks that are paying me over 50K tax free a year in dividends. Probably the craziest thing to ever happen to me. And ive kept it all secret.
Secret from my LTR, secret from my family, secret from my friends and coworkers. I always hated the type to brag about shit. Actions over words. Plus, I live the same life now that i did then. But i wonder if this is fucking with my head.. should we embrace our accomplishments?
I took a job last year working alone. Doing overnights fulltime in my field. Thought it was a good opportunity but it has left me lonely. I don't get much time to see my friends outside of work, and even on my days off i am usually on different hours than everyone and makes meeting up difficult.
Basically, i think working this job or trying to be "machiavellian" hiding my real self has pushed me from social, to antisocial in just one year. That cocky and funny energy gone. And that people are starting to see me differently. As a quiet, or shy person.
At this point, do i say fuck it and quit my career? I feel bored in life and miss the fun atmosphere i used to be in. I work out 5 days a week, am a musician and learning new instruments, been learning to pilot lightweight aircraft, but all of it's been of little benefit.. the old saying "money cant buy you happiness" is true.
TLDR; I made stacks, kept it completely secret and now feel empty and have a job that is keeping me from my potential. Does anyone have any good books, reading or advice to break out of this funk?
EDIT: I think after getting this off my chest and hearing your suggestions, I will take some time to travel for the next month. See places I haven't seen. It's clear to me working nights, and being solitary is fucking toxic. This sub is the only place to get good advice these days. Sometimes a man has to sack up and do what he knows he has to. I hope all who threw in, get to fuck their 10/10 oneitis this weekend. For real, you guys are the bomb