Hi,
wife wanted out of the relationship to be with her affaire full time. This was okay for me. We agreed on 50/50 custody since April. After a few weeks she realised that 50/50 custody will reduce child support payments from me to her drasticly. So she changed her mind and went for full custody. I was fighting back but ultimately lost in court yesterday.
My kids are 8 and 4 years old. The seven month I had shared custody was the best time of my life. We have been a great team and we had so much fun.
Yesterday the court ordered that I can see my kids every second weekend and one Wednesday afternoon for two hours every second week. This is killing me. Im completely devastated. Also my son is suffering. He was with me in court and asked the judge to keep custody 50/50.

How do i cope with the pain? Its eating my soul. I cant stop crying. Please share your tips.