I’m crying y’all

Maybe when we have low self-esteem we confuse kindness with a good connection? These uglies should be getting added to the acquaintance category and can be upgraded to friend if they prove themselves, but we shouldn’t give them anymore than that. Ugly men will be super sweet at first which is how they reel you in. They figure out what your insecurity is and give you the idea that adding them to your life will fill whatever void you have in your life. Once they’re in your life though they either sabotage the relationship or ghost as a power play because they know the relationship is unbalanced. Being able to say they rejected or hurt a hot girl gets them off, and they want to hurt you before you realize you’re the one with the power in the relationship, because once that happens they’ll end up hurt.

My last ugly was a broke nurse that worked two jobs, is starting to have his hairline recede before age 30, had a huge nose, was 5’8, had major student debt, broke up with his last girlfriend by just deciding to move states for work without telling her until he got the job (huge fucking red flag I can’t believe I avoided), had a disturbing hatred for fat people, and was such a coward he would cover his eyes during “scary” parts of movies we watched. But he was nice to me so i gAvE hiM a cHaNcE. As soon as I had sex with him he started dropping the nice act and problems started arising.

I ended up looking like the idiot, not him. He got to sleep with a girl out of his league which is what they aspire to do. Lesson learned.

Since then I’ve gone on dates with financially stable men who are more attractive but I haven’t found that “connection” yet so I haven’t pursued things further. I’m taking a break from dating but it’s nice to know I can and will do better.