<Hopefully helpful rant>

Edit: I misread, thought troubled guy made original post.

Dealing with tragedy is yet one more RP skill. Whether you have a flu so bad you want to die, suicide seems like a rational choice, you lost your job and have no means to pay rent and / or you got divorced it you will be in a state you believe is how it's always been and will always be. It's not. Use your mind. The amount of time you spend that 'that mental' that you want to die is a tiny sliver of the time you have lived. Understand that. The most fucked situation will pass with no effort and some patience. That's rule #1. It gets better than that because if you can just keep yourself distracted, say watching a movie, then movie hopping to kill 4 hours of this sliver you are ahead. That's rule #2.. you can wait it out in a waiting room fretting over it the whole time and it will pass so distracting yourself for hours is even better. It's much better to go in to self regulation mode, and distract yourself for hours too. That is, make sure you have eaten a few times every day, don't spend time thinking about the problems in a way that drives you crazy. Choose one of your problems and solve it in chunks, then use any downtime to distract yourself with a movie or a podcast. That's rule #3 Merely distracting yourself will get you out of 'wanting death' mode, but if you can put in some work jobs as a form distraction, and solving some of the problems as a form of distraction, you will not only come out of it soon enough, you will be happy you did and ready to move on.

It doesn't matter if you when to a street corner and hung around like a bum for a week. It will pass.

After. you know it will pass. no matter what's a matter of channeling yourself to pass the time.

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Also. All the 'deadbeat dad' and other shit are just shit women criminally use to distract blame from themselves. You need strategies to deal with that shit as well. It's about learning not to lower your head when one of these verbal abuse lines is bolting towards you. It's about seeing them for what they are AWHILE you are being shanked with this abuse. You should see these actions as petting, malicious and childlike. As a strategy do not every visualize yourself as a deadbeat dad or ever engage in explaining to them why you are not a deadbeat dad. That's just shit stupid stuff men do. If a woman is blatantly using a lie to get somewhere, she will never say 'oh your right' after you explain it to her. Don't allow yourself to be around those 'backing her up' Avoid the ones you must see sometimes, never see yourself as what they are calling you, and never engage or explain. If you have to retreat, retreat to your real friends and / or here.

Eliminate as much (that is all) of the drama and brain damage as possible by keeping busy or distracted (a healthy combo of both is the ticket). Put logistical strategies to deal with this shit in place. Who knows maybe you'll have a flu from hell next year, you can use the same strategies again.

Maybe watch stoism videos on youtube. It's timely information that will put you in the right frame of mind. That is don't shit time trying to control what you can't control, and go full force on what you can control (you can always complete them and feel rewarded), especially times like this. Another one. Remember that all of your problems are stupid trivial in the big scheme of things. If you are acting out drama you chose to. No different then when you see someone else act like a clown when they are getting arrested or after a divorce. What do you think of them? you are thinking them acting out is just retarded. Accept that if you are acting out as a drama clown you it's useless and you are doing it by choice, not because it's a 'normal response'. That's another stoic thing, but I didn't explain that one that well.

Here's a link to youtube videos on stoism. Clicking on any one of them will probably get your head screwed on straight again.

Also read 'Light Switch Effect' in the sidebar.